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[personal profile] citrus_java
there was something very triggery on lj -
so just - needed to go into "ball form"....

now -
my mom died last week - it both made worse and maybe less bad for her having beeen abusive - but also worse in o many ways.... and..... just that - yea

Date: 2016-08-05 03:07 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] kalliel
Oh, bb. <3333333 So much love to you right now, for all the reasons. If you want a listener, or anything at all, I'm here for you.

Date: 2016-08-05 05:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
t hank you so so much, means a lot, bb

Date: 2016-08-05 04:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm so very sorry. I hope you can find some comfort here on LJ amongst people you know.
*offers hugs*

Date: 2016-08-05 05:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
t hank you so so so much ....

Date: 2016-08-05 04:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm so sorry. Sending you comforting thoughts and love. <3

Date: 2016-08-05 05:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
thank you very very muh- you r omforting very appreiated

Date: 2016-08-05 05:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh no. No matter what the relationship, that's got to be a complicated bundle of suck. Be nice to yourself, and we'll be thinking of you as you sort through this.

Date: 2016-08-06 01:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
thank you so much, this is such a kin thoughtful reply

Date: 2016-08-06 07:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh darling :((( I'm so sorry to hear about this. Even if a parental relationship is difficult/abusive/bad etc, the death will still be a hard thing to face. Perhaps even doubly so as there is a feeling of things left unresolved. *sits with you quietly and holds your wrist* Be kind to yourself. Be angry. Cry, shout, laugh, have fun, kick the walls. Whatever helps, all is allowed. Your grief and how you express it is yours. <3

Date: 2016-08-06 12:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
these are lovely things....

Probably the main feeling I remain with so far is guilt - with moments of horror, relief, hopelessness or sadness, isolation and fond memories, and guiltagain.... i try to do the 'taking caree of myself ' thing, watch silly tv, do uni work, and i try being around people at least a little....

anyway - thank you thank you o much !

Date: 2016-08-06 01:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
So sorry to hear about the tough time you have been having. I'm so sorry for your loss and all the feelings that you are struggling with there as well.

Date: 2016-08-06 02:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you very very much !

Date: 2016-08-08 04:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm really sorry *hugs*

Date: 2016-08-09 09:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
th ank you very much

Date: 2016-08-08 04:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm so very sorry to hear this. Sending you lots of support and thoughts.

Date: 2016-08-09 09:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

thank s a lot lot - thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111


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