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I've been trying to do the thing and tell people about my problems, inabilities and fears, for all they feel like horrifying sins, for all \i have trouble expressing them and sometimes people don't understand or say things that break me down even more, or blame me, or use my vulnerability against me, for all it's sometimes legit dangerous for me. More than that, though, some people have been truly - friends, caring, understanding, or just there for me. Even just saying small things like - that it's not my fault, or making me laugh, or sending me a hug, or saying that I'm not just imagining things or that I'm not just making a huge deal out of something silly, or that it is ok to get angry, or that it is ok to be unable. Some of you have been those people, are those people, and even some of the first people to be there for my first steps of trying to share, and have been so incredibly meaningful for me in that (and other things, too 3) -
of course I have a long long way still to go, but fuck, that has made and still makes a huge difference in my life. Thank you. You know, even just that it is ok to ask for help or to be supported by anyone, that that is not a sin, not a horrible thing to do to them in essence (of course saying no is an important option).

There has been a lot of talk lately about support - and you are being so wonderful for me, and you make a huge difference.
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