there was something very triggery on lj - so just - needed to go into "ball form"....
now - my mom died last week - it both made worse and maybe less bad for her having beeen abusive - but also worse in o many ways.... and..... just that - yea
Probably the main feeling I remain with so far is guilt - with moments of horror, relief, hopelessness or sadness, isolation and fond memories, and guiltagain.... i try to do the 'taking caree of myself ' thing, watch silly tv, do uni work, and i try being around people at least a little....
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Probably the main feeling I remain with so far is guilt - with moments of horror, relief, hopelessness or sadness, isolation and fond memories, and guiltagain.... i try to do the 'taking caree of myself ' thing, watch silly tv, do uni work, and i try being around people at least a little....
anyway - thank you thank you o much !