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Title: No evil thing will
Pairing: Osric/Jared
Rating: gen
Words: 1800
Warning: flawed, unbeta'ed and it shows, this is a 'for fun' fic, gender d ysphoria, mental-emotional issues
Tags for: trans character, non-binary Osric, Jared being a cutie, cosplay, crossplay, crossdressing, friendship is magic, Always Keep fighting
Note: this is for [ profile] balder12 , on account of her being wonderful
for her prompt: "Jared/Osric where Osric has talked Jared into doing a cosplay that requires painted nails, and Osric paints them for him"

Summary: Jared's campaign brings up some stuff in Osric that he'd been carefully trying to leave behind

It's not a prank war that gets Jared to do it, not a lost bet or someone from wardrobe getting him drunk again. Not even submission to Osric's superior skills as a warrior


When Osric was twelve, he had a hard year. He was becoming a boy, a grown boy, no matter how much he hated it, no matter how much he told his body not to do that. Somehow he'd imagined he'd be able to decide things like whether his face was hairy, or how low his voice would go

It wasn't that he wanted to be a girl, exactly - he wanted to stay the way he was, he wanted to - he didn't want to be a boy.

He hated that his body went through that, put Osric through that, hated it bitter and dark.

It ended with doctors, and therapy he didn't want, and his father crying. It was a bad year.

It was bad enough to send Osric the other way. Training in Wing Tsun and later, Tai Chi, a way to make his body his own again. And a way to get friends again. He hated the smell of his sweat.

He got used to it. Became that guy. Found things he liked about this new self. Mostly, not being- not being there. Not being twelve.

Not a lot of people know this about Osric, and definitely Osric never told anyone on the show. They don't have that sort of relationship/ They're work friends, maybe getting drunk friends or barbecue friends. They don't connect the was Jared and Jensen do - nobody does. And if Osric occasionally thinks about Jared's long legs wrapped around Osric's waist – he can always just blame it on Tumblr.

When Jared launches the first video of hiscampaign, Osric looks at it, because he is part of the SPN family, because of the fans.

In seconds it puts him right back at twelve

He stays a bit cracked open for the rest of the day , skips training and just thinks – no, mostly just feels.

When Jared uploads another vid Osric cuts a night out short to go home and watch it alone. He's not sure how he'll find himself reacting to it - but he doesn't want to find out publicly .


He has to watch all the videos, and he's not even sure whether it's bad for him or good. He keeps tearing up – it's ridiculous. As if something bad happened. Watches over and over and reminds himself that he's ok. It's ok. He Says it out loud to himself. Nobody needs to know.


He watches them enough that h gets used to recognizing the intonations in which Jared says - that fighting is brave, that you are awesome if you go through that. Finds himself using those intonations too.


They're filming a scene together for the season ten double episode finale, and Osric spends Jared's coverage listening to the soft, genuine speech patterns he knows from the videos, in Sam's words. Weird that this can be the same man who spent the day placing whoopee cushions on every chair Misha tried to use.

They're waiting for the crew to adjust the lights around the Impala, and Osric just tells him. Careful to do it right, to connect it to the campaign Jared's so passionate about, , 'you know how everybody's got emotional scars from school?' . Just to make sure. Doesn't need to take chances with the star of the show. With the guy who's been telling him to always keep fighting low in his headphones at night. Doesn't want to lose that.

Jared's quiet for a moment, then they're called back. As they go, Jared grabs Osric in a quick, ,huge hug

"Thanks for telling me, buddy".


Osric begs out of cosplaying as Misty, and goes as Ash. Just to make sure it's recognizable. After that he is Loki. Then The Doctor (10!), Jareth the Goblin King, and Simba. One of the costume makers suggest he goes as Rarity, and the mane and tail she shows him are fantastic, but he's maybe been overdoing it with gorgeous. He does Wolverine instead, Aragorn. He's not a kid.


Jared takes pictures with him in conventions, like always. He doesn't do cosplay himself, but he compliments the outfits, makes bunny ears over Osric's Loki horns
doesn't say anything.

But after a while he starts giving Osric this soft frowny look.


Jared is not Sam. Not as controlled about keeping quiet, not as trained at not talking. Jared say Gen helps him be that way . If he feels it needs to be done, he'll call you out.

He grabs a moment with Osric during lunch, between panels. Osric is dressed as Batman, and it's nice. Just not – he could have gone as Sound of Music Maria, or, a designer showed him an Impala dress she'd made for herself and offered to make him one, maybe go with him as Dean, he'd been wanting a TARDIS or Impala dress…. And a fan offered to make him a Human Rarity costume - people should cut it out with the ponies, enough. Maybe he's still a little bit raw about giving up the last Rarity outfit.

"Listen, buddy" Jared says, and he is the only person Osric knows who says 'buddy' without it sounding like he's gonna tell you to move your car or lower your music. Somehow with Jared it just sounds like a friendly hand on your shoulder, like he actually means to remind you he's your buddy. Jared's mouth goes thin and stressed, and Osric's insides freeze . "Look, I - " Jared run s a hand through his hair, pulls off his beanie. "I've been talking a lot lately about how everybody goes through things, and for me, I was lucky, because I had people to talk with, I had friends who were supportive and got me through it" his eyes are lowered and in a moment he'll laugh off the way he's babbling. But not what he is saying. Even Jared's uncomfortable smile is genuine dimples. Jared gathers himself and looks at Osric. "the thing you told me - that's important, you're important. Not gonna tell you what you oughta do, but I'm here for you. I got your back". Osric says nothing. Jared looks like he's gonna let it go, but doesn't. His eyes on Osric are intent, hopeful. "You gotta – you shouldn't just shove that under the rug" he contradicts his promise almost right away. "We can talk, if you want". Jared's voice is gentle, reassuring, then there's something bright and quick in his eyes. "Or, next convention, if you wear something you - want, you can choose what I wear".

At first, it's Pinkie Pie. It goes with Osric's Rarity, and Jared would be a Pinkie Pie - bouncy, happy and devoted to his friends, though she's easy going where he can be righteous and he is warm and solid where she can be frazzled.

Jared running through a convention in a long pink wig can be appealing.
But as soon as Osric sees his dress for the first time, he changes his mind.

As Rarity, Osric has long soft lavender hair, big luscious curls thick over his shoulders. He has a matching tail, and soft velvety ears. But the dress, he didn’t expect. It's not a simple costume dress. Not even a cosplay dress, and he's seen some amazing cosplay dresses. It has a touch of a forties feel, tight around his ribs, to show off his long hair, with harmonious understated pleats curving up, and a skirt both precise and luxurious. This dress is loving, thought out couture. Perfect for a fashionista pony. Jared has to be a fashionista with him .


Once Jared stops giggling at the idea of being an evil dog-napper, he looks at himself more seriously. His movements become more measured, back straight, neck stretching, hand on his chest. looks majestic in his synthetic white fur coat, flashes of red lining when he moves . The dress underneath, almost a slip, stretches across Jared's body as he changes position, showing off aspects and angles of his beauty, like a sequin catching different angles of light.

He has a long limbed regal grace about him, when he stands still looking hard and sharp, but even as he stumbles around on his heels. Jared in heels. Jensen would need a ladder to catch up. he waves his cigarette holder around and poses raising a perfectly shaped eyebrow, mouth twisted in mock evil smiles as he checks himself out, eyes merciless. Reminds Osric of Jared's relish in playing soulless Sam.

After a moment or two, Jared wriggles out of his gloves. They're pretty, but too restrictive, Osric realizes with some sadness. Still -

"Jared, want me to paint your nails?"


Osric's own nails are short and amethyst, with stones in the design of rarity's cutie mark. He couldn't have made them so perfect on his own. His skill will do for a simple coat of nail polish. He gives Jared a assessing look. H e kinda wants to match metallic ancient white to the fur, like pearls, but he doesn't have it. Only has metallic blue

Osric spreads a towel on his lap, t protet his outfit, and takes Jared's hand. It's large, warm and pleasantly rough skinned. "You have the best knuckles".

Jared smiles. "I should be more careful when I punch people in the face? "
"Just make sure they moisturized before you punch them".

Jared's nails are square and thick. There's something so intimate about the way Jared relaxes in Osric's hands, lets hi move Jared's fingers as he likes, trusting.

Jared has gorgeous hands. Osric wants to run his fingers, lips, face against them, feel them cup his face. Wants to lick them and put them in his mouth. To feel the roughness of Jared's skin against his lips, dipping in.
The nail polish spreads nicely, thick and shining in tiny sparks, first layer a bit translucent still. The brush seems so smooth, Osric wants to check what it would feel like against his skin.

Jared takes a look. "It's pretty, like you could see fish down there".

Jared waits, hands spread before him obediently as the color dries, and watches Osric readjust his wig, his makeup.

"You are an amazing person" Jared says suddenly, voice low and warm. " this thing you're doing is amazing". Because Jared lets himself just say things like that. Osric isn't looking. Jared sounds lighter, changes directions with Osric's discomfort. "And you're gorgeous. I know that Cruella would definitely want a coat made out of you".
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We've been playing this on facebook and it's fun - perhaps it could work on lazy LJ too!
This is how it goes: every person who wants to play replies to the previous question (you can post to your journal and link to it or just reply to this post. Once you've replied to a question, you ask one of your own - either a question about a person's life, or you can challenge them to make up a few lines of a fic.
It's ok to reply to something that already got a reply if you like that better.

Let's see whether this works!

(please warn for triggers, +it's ok to be uncomfortable with something and not want to do it)

OK, a few questions to start us off to choose from:
1) tell us about a really awesome cuddle session you had
or 2) post a pic of the messiest space in your home
or 3) tell us about one time you cut school, and what you did instead
or 4) write us a few lines about any of that, re.... Sam. Or Jess. Or someone you love.
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One of my favorite things about Jensen - or the way he seem to be etc - is one I very rarely find in fic.

I get the sense that Jensen considers it his responsibility to be there and to help people he loves. Perhaps not everyone, perhaps not in every - but I get the sense he's there for people. And for the longer run, too. If a friend were going through something, Jensen would care, would take it into account, would be supportive. If only in phone calls - in keeping that person in his thoughts. Even if Jensen weren't feeling all that stable himself, he'd want to be stable for a loved one. Not necessarily in one glorious action - just being there for the person, in subtle ways....

I wonder how come this is so rarely a point in fic - have I been reading the wrong fic?

SPN rewatch

Aug. 9th, 2014 06:39 pm
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You know, like the first time around, I still find myself surprised sometimes when the boys don't kiss. I don't mean I'm watching and marveling at their get-a-room-iness. I just watch, and follow the plot, and they look at each other or lean into each other and it's completely natural and I don't really notice it, and they *don't kiss*, and that is when I notice something is weird.
This isn't even fandom's influence , I experienced that watching before joining fandom.

and )
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*jumps around*

So, I wrote on [ profile] spnstoryfinders:
I love fic in which the characters read fic about themselves. Now I'm wondering - is there fic in which one ship reads about another, or gen? Like, in a Wincest story, reading Destiel, or Destiel story, reading Sassy. Sam and Dean reading J2, John finding out about fic, Misha and Osric have a competition to see how many times they can get J2 to say lines from fic, or just something different, like Dean getting off on Snape/Remus (it' a form of art!)
I prefer fic that's not about bashing other ships (perhaps it shows the readers a different perspective of the relationships?), but I'll take any.

And [ profile] aradatm, clearly being a kind, generous soul, SURPRISED MY WITH A BRAND NEW FIC! :D
*squees and jumps around some more*

It's J2 in which Jared writes fic, you guys :D

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As [ profile] balder12 pointed out convincingly, this is a fun challenge - basically, over your fic to be remixed, and if you feel like it, remix other participant's fic. Fun, easy, slashy, supernaturally (though other fandoms as well)! Go do it! It's my first time, you're likely to seem very savvy around me.

ETA: This forced me to actually update my master fic list. That is a thing that happened, IRL. Wow.
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OMGOMGOMGOMG, this will be like the days of J2 living together, only with more of a community and more orgies. I want ALL THE FIC! :D
And I want Vicky and Jensen to have a bunch of good talks, please. OMG!

"Misha: he and Jared and Jensen were talking about all renting a house together in Italy next year with the families."

So - please, please, pretty please, may I have some new non-au, well characterized RPS...
And thank you to [ profile] big_heart_june for pointing to this!
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The way Danneel is sometimes written - the most doormatty fag hag, her needs don't even merit a mention - sometimes makes me glad she gets Jensen IRL*.

*Ugh, I gotta say "pretty sure" about the normative relationship thing. Cause, yeah, pretty sure is about the right about of sure IMO.
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I have lost the ability to can <3

Wow, oh <3
This is probably my favorite episode of the season.

Most of the Sam/Dean, Jared/Jensen stuff was sadly spoiled in advance, but oh, wow, Misha!

The fondness and tenderness in Misha's voice when Dean/Jensen tells him he needs him is a clearer "I love you" than when he actually says it. And the whole "I know you didn't say it, but you wanted to", Holy shit, Misssssssssha!11111111111
New ship, you guys <3

I just want to read Misha domming Jensen into expressing these things in words... which is basically what I just watched, so perhaps the fic is redundant.

And Misha had better get him to talk about him and Jared too, cause omg, OMG, love.
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These are for [ profile] fantamae, as part of the [ profile] cakehole_club Cakeswap podfic exchange. It's *so* late, and [ profile] fantamae and the mods, [ profile] applegeuse and [ profile] fishpatrol, were so fantastic about it.
OMG, I'm done. It's been months, so many months, and I AM DONE!
(imperfections galore, but done!)

Title: Thought Your Coffee Table Was More Clever than That
Author: [ profile] queenklu
Reader: [ profile] citrusjava
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: Mature
Length: 16:56
Author's Summary: He woke up in the bathroom of a KFC once; this is practically a luxury.
Download or stream

Title: Rhymes with Niagara
Author: [ profile] sevenfists
Reader: [ profile] citrusjava
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Rating: NC-17
Length: 07:31
Summary: Dean gets hit by the Viagra Fairy at a rest stop in Illinois.
Download or stream

Title: Cheese
Author: Queenklu
Reader: CitrusJava
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Warning: mention of drug use
Rating: PG-13
Length: 03:18
Summary: Dean gets high
Download or stream

Title: Sparkles
Author: Queenklu
Reader: CitrusJava
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: PG
Length: 05:31
Summary: Unrequited love, the internet and a big talk in the Impala.
Download or stream

Title: Save You from the Dragons
Author: Queenklu
Reader: CitrusJava
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Warning: Head of a Pin spoilers, going through withdrawal
Rating: PG-13
Length: 04:16
Summary: As Sam goes through withdrawal, he gets talkative.
Download or stream

Title: Wear Him Like a Habit
Author: Sevenfists
Reader: CitrusJava
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Rating: R
Length: 15:10
Summary: He's hard in his jeans—Sam can see it, and he can see the hot flush rising up Dean's neck, but Dean's still stopping. Download or stream.
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Title: Super-Size Me
Fandom: Supernatural RPF
Relationships: Jensen/Jared, Jensen/Jared/Misha
Rating: NC-17
Warnings/Kinks: Size kink, cock worship, come play. Silliness.
Disclaimer: As far as I know, this never happened. I fondly wish those involved well.
Notes: Thank you to [ profile] balder12 for her awesome beta and encouragement. You rock.
Written for the [ profile] j2_crack Enchantment Gone Wrong Comment-Meme
The hamster vid referred to is this one.
Prompt by [ profile] sweetspicyhot: Established J2 relationship, can be AU or not. Jensen gets greedy and casts a spell to make a certain part of Jared's anatomy even bigger. The spell backfires and suddenly all of Jared is exponentially bigger--giant sized. The spell will right itself in 48 hours. But Jared is horny and Jensen must find a way to get him off. Definitely NC-17 on this one, will Jensen need help?, an additional cast member or friend--it's up to you!

Summary: Jensen's spell did not go as planned. Now Jared keeps growing and growing, and something has to be done, fast!

The spell – as spells do – had gone wrong )
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So, according to this report, at AHBL, this happened:

Girl: If you had to sell your soul for something, what would that thing be?
Matt: Just one - just one fanfic where I dominate Misha instead of Misha dominating me.

Now, I really like Matt. He's such a friend to fandom and to queer people. And when people ask for porn about themselves, they should get it. I don't generally write Matt and Misha, but I am dearly fond of them both. So here goes. Oh, I don't ask of Matt's soul, I ask that he keeps it. All I want in return is for him to keep talking about how hot he finds Jen to keep being an awesome person and friendly to queer folk.

Title: Just One Fanfic
Pairing: Matt/Misha
Rating: R?
Warnings: BDSM, unbetaed
Summary: It takes Misha time to be able to let go. In other words - completely plotless porn.
Note: I kinda wish someone would write fic about Misha writing fic for Matt. I shoulda thought of that while I was still writing.

Misha's eyes widened, then softened. The tiny muscles around them flickered and twitched with every sensation, his mouth slowly falling open, as his breaths got deeper, raspier.

Matt brushed a knuckle over Misha's ribs, so gentle he was barely touching )


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